Thanksgiving and Christmas, even though I love them are very hard on me. I really have no contact with my (and I use this term loosely) Mother. My Mom is not the typical Mom. She always worked as a nurse to support 3 kids after she finally left my abusive Dad. I do not begrudge her for not being there for me 85% of the time(although my oldest brother(her favorite) she has been there for no matter what. I finally got tired of dragging my kids one with a health problem 6 hours in a car to see her. She has never made the effort to see her Grandkids unless I bring them to her. I decided on Mother's Day of last year that I would not be doing it as often and asked her when she thought she could come here to see the kids, since it is much easier on her to get here with no kids then me with 2 kids. She has yet to see them or even call. 2 Christmases have come and gone as have 2 Birthdays. My children have not received so much as a card for Christmas or their birthdays. I know this hurts Riss deeply as she used to be very close to her Grandmother that now because of yet another marriage cannot be bothered to see her Grandkids. She has Riss's cell phone number but has not called her in over a year and a half. Ralphie could care less. She is more of an illusion to him then anything. I pity her for that. I mean when you are on husband number 3, I would think you wouldn't yet again ditch your kids(except for her #1 of course) for whatever man you happen to be married to. I know this is a heavy post but I had to get this verbal vomit out before I went insane. I looked around at Jim's close family at Thanksgiving and it made me hurt so bad. I will never have that and that breaks my heart. One thing I know for sure is I refuse to ever do this to my kids or Grandkids should I be lucky enough to have them(in at least 20 years Riss!, no sooner!).
Then I saw this picture and realized no matter how much I miss having a Mother that gives a shit, I am still very very lucky and so very Thankful for them!